12:00 AM
Friday, October 24, 2008
what the
fuck.
I AM
SUPER DUPER PISSED .
they treat me like I'm a little KID.
okay, so I'm '
friendly'
apparently overly SO.
just because i'm '
friendly' doesnt mean i'm not FREAKIN
CAREFUL.
doesnt mean i dont use my
BRAINS when it comes to people.
I KNOW THAT SOME PEOPLE DONT ALWAYS HAVE THE
BEST OF INTENTIONS. -_-'
PFFFFFFT.
and the reason why i dont TELL you about some things is because you just don't
UNDERSTAND.and you don't even
TRY. that's why i dont even
bother to argue.
just a waste of breath only. it's only going to
end the same way. you think i'm
bad, evil, going astray, whatever.
just because you don't
KNOW my friends doesn't mean they're
bad, alright?
geez, and you wonder why I don't trust you guys.
DUH, because its vice versa. and when I do try opening myself up it
ALWAYS GOES WRONG. -_- wth. in the end just give up la.
you guys
patronize me,
put me in the middle of your fights, place
unnecessary pressure on me (
WHEN ITS SUPPOSED TO BE MY OWN FREAKING DECISION), and
YOU especially
TELLING ME TO BE HONEST AND OPEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT EVEN HONEST AND OPEN YOURSELF?hahaha. you
hypocrite, you.
you guys don't even know the
REASON why i act the way I do.
ugh.
yes i have
anger management issues.
and yes I've tried talking to God. apparently not
hard enough.
I'm still
bitter, she's still as
blur as ever about things, and I'm the one left to
deal with it all.
thanks a whole lot, you guys.
JUST WHAT I NEEDED.i talked to Pastor Rose about it. she was really helpful and stuff but really I feel like I'm going through this all alone.
nobody understands.
and now that ____ is gone i feel
worse and worse.angst angst angst.it helped when you were around, but you're not anymore, so i guess it's back to crying on the floor.i miss my brother.
i need to escape. but i don't know
how, or
where to.
i want to cry or smash things but i can't do either.
JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.Labels: angst
