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use your head, woman.

Labels: angst, disillusioned

i feel like i'm stuck in a rut.
i want to get out but i don't know how.
FRUSTRATED.
D:
sigh.


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i feel like running away. ):
i think i need a therapist.
i hate these stupid fcking feelings. UGH.
i want to be a vampire in The Vampire Diaries, so I can shut my pain off.
but then again, that would be taking away my humanity.
):
and it's not like vampires exist anyway -_-

Labels: angst, sadness

I feel SO annoyed with you sometimes.
seriously I do.
i want to slap your face,.!
you don't call back when you say you will.
you don't text back.
It's such a big disgrace
I don't know where you are, or who you're with, or what you're doing.

I miss you and you say you do too.
But honestly I ain't really seeing it.
and I think I'm getting the flu (not again)

Labels: angst, poetry, song lyrics

dear mom,
why do you always think everybody is out to get you?
it is freaking annoying.
please stop treating me like a 6 year old.
i am 19.
not 6.
thank you very much.


_____________
i wish my mother would read all that.
i am so so frustrated with her.
stop
being
so
freaking
paranoid.
UGH!
!
#O!@#!#!()#!SFAKJFOSIOQWEQOPKMCLCA
sometimes
i
really
really
strongly
DISLIKE YOU!!!!

GRR ROAR__________________________

Labels: angst

Labels: alone, angst, confusion, emo, sadness

i hate that you can see through me.

Labels: alone, angst, poetry, song lyrics

those words you said. More than i can bear. Each word cuts into my skin. Blood drips on the floor. 'Say it,' I command you. 'Just say it and get it over with.' 'You're not good enough for me. You will never be good enough for me.' . I want this pain to go away. I want the cuts to heal. The bruises no one sees. no one who knows the real me.

Labels: angst, poetry, song lyrics

i walk my life with two parallels
by my side.
love and hate
i hate you but my love is stronger.
does that make sense?
i still remember.
i have the scars to prove it.

Labels: angst, poetry, song lyrics

it's so unfair
that's she's so nice
and pretty and smart
and everything I'm NOT
and i want to kill her, i do.
oh i am an evil evil, person.
i don't deserve to be your friend.

i am going to die, cold, bitter, and alone.
:)

i hate you, by the way. :)
both of you.

Labels: angst

i'm tired of being here.

Labels: angst, poetry

it's the funniest thing;
i want to kill you.
there is no light at my window,
i sit in the darkness,
brewing
dear vienna
the water's dark tonight.
and i confess
we were happy like we should be
then you had to go and ruin it all
i want to burn that bridge and make it fall.

Labels: angst, poetry

YOU SUCK I WANNA SMACK YOUR FAISE
go get some empathy please.
:]
:D
HAHAHA

Labels: angst

i want to hit you on the head. :)
until you get it.
:)

Labels: angst

sometimes i want to scream at myself for being the biggest ass FOOL on this planet :P
but i don't think i'm the worst after all.
HAHA.
two steps forward, one step backward.
i take it one day at the time :]
it's all good.
i've got people to watch my back after all
and I'm so thankful
that i never went out with him
got a warning from the astronaut
and he was right as usual.
LOL
if you want me i'm a lot harder to get
so
you better do better than that.
~Katy Perry
:)
I need to set myself up a little higher. just need to chill and not overthink
because it's a bad habit and i end up being sad and silly.
which is BAD and B told me to be strong
and he's right.
i'm gonna try, every day.
not lose faith
even though it seems difficult
but i will.
with the help of them.
i CAN do this
i WILL do it
i know i can.
i believe it.
God willing.
:]
it's a fight i have to make.
the price i have to pay.
just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.
haha that reminds me of her.
:O
TQ B, I owe you.
I do. :)
i need to open my eyes and see who's around me to help me up.
and sometimes people surprise you.
sometimes i need you, and sometimes i don't.
and not this time,
this time i won't.
sometimes you just need to reach out to see who's there.
a beautiful tragedy.
:)

currently tuning into 'Breathe - Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Caillat'

and yet it rains when you're gone.

Labels: angst, appreciation, shammie

i hate myself.
it surprises me.
how strong this is.
and i wish for someone to tell me it's gonna be okay.
but no one ever does, no one ever does.
i'm lying half the time
and saying i'm fine
nobody knows the truth.
not even you, not even you.

Labels: angst, depression, emo, hurt, sadness

friday:
i feel like exploding.
like a volcano.
spitting and erupting fire everywhere.
but of course, that's immature.
but it's not like i'm the most mature person around anyway.
*laughs
but i seriously wanna stab something right now.
either that or burst into tears.
lol
but i shall do neither
it's all about distraction, honey.
and i was right, about you not caring.
i'm not into game playing. i'm annoyed by it.
but hell, why not get into it?
everyone's playing it.
-___________-'
ugh.
i wanna throw up.
and throw something.
=D
i will one day i think
hahahahah
gotta take these suckers down cos they just get in my way.
i like Katy Perry.
i like her style of music.
it's so kitschy and unique.
same with Lily Allen.
both of them are freaking awesome.
i got leather leggings.
with zippers at the side
omg
*dies
of happiness
love love love
=D
and i got my black dress.
and i'm going to get my beach shorts soon,
:)
sigh.
shopping...
is....
EVILLL!
but i love it.
:(
__
saturday:
i'm pissed.
haha. like seriously
my throat hurts.
UGH.
hate being sick.

Labels: angst

have you ever felt so alone?
in the midst of a crowd.
sometimes i feel that way,
withdrawn.
like nobody knows me.
nobody cares.
yes i'm wallowing so
i'm going to stfu
and go find some other lousy thing to do to get my mind off things.
story of my life.
i miss the people that don't care about me
isn't that strange?
they won't give two fucks
and yet i care so much
and yes i should stop swearing
ugh.

Labels: angst, emo

i don't know why i bother being such a good friend when you don't even give a fuck about me.
i guess now i know.
who's been the real friend all along.
all it takes is just one call.
one text to make it all okay.
but apparently you're too proud for that.
you KNOW i'm right.
god, this hurts so bad.
knowing that you're too damn stubborn about this.
i had to find out this way,
you just wrote me off.
but you don't even care.
and i do, so much,
in spite of myself.
Why do I even bother??

Labels: angst, sadness, stupid

this hurts.
this hurts so goddamnmotherfucking much
and i want you to know how it feels
to feel like you're bleeding on the inside,
you never even had the guts to say you're sorry.
you're tired?
well, I'm tired too.
a different kind of tired.
tired of all this.

i want to say more to you.
on text.
but really, i don't know what to say.
guilting you out doesn't work.
you just don't have a conscience when it comes to me.
i'm just sarah after all.
just nobody at all to you.
or at least it seems like it alot of the time.
perhaps that is what hurts the most.
perhaps if i start acting like ___________
you might like it more?
perhaps if i treated you a little meaner, you might like it more?
ha. fat chance.
the saddest part is you'll never ever realise how much i care for you.
you'll never know or understand how i feel until you've been in my shoes.
don't call me a hypocrite when you're one too.
open your eyes, honey.
don't point out the speck in my eye when the piece of wood is freaking in your face!
i wish, oh how i wish you would know what this feels like.
crying at night feels so worthless
i'm never going to be good enough for you, aren't i?
and you always seem to let me down.
disappoint me.
i always hope for better in you.
you're sorry, oh, you'll change.
and every single time, i believe you.
i don't know who's the bigger fool.
you or I.

Labels: angst, disillusioned, hurt, sadness

its early in the morning .
i can't sleep .
i'm sick .
i miss baby and vivien.
i haven't blogged in a while and
i'm just lazy
&
i hate my parents .
i'm an angsty loser teen i know .
with no sense of gratefulness
but REALLY
FUCK OFF
PISS OFF
I don't want you around
judging
me; my friends,
as if you know me.
you don't know ANYTHING.

sigh
just another emo night for me.

Labels: angst

drugs
mother
Sun
sadness
curiosity
the reason why
just no, fuck no.
tumblr
how to recognize I'm a psycho
fuck you. I'm fine alone.

i wrap my world in you
all you can think is yourself
this is a time i have to leave
i'm in this by my self
-ignite

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