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I turned and watched you kiss her.
A stab through my heart.
A sob in the dark.

That should be me.
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watching music videos on Youtube! :D
i love this new series I've been following - The Vampire Diaries ? it is pretty BLOODY AWESOME. pardon the pun ;)
but seriously stefan and damon are drool worthy! :P
and elena is like the freaking best girl ever.
i wanna be like her.
i aspire to be like her!
:P


i will be the one who will not be moved.
i will stick to the promise I made.
no matter how hard it gets.

Labels: emo

Took your number off my cellphone
I don't want it anymore
And the next time you come around
I'll be showing you the door

Cos' I'm tired of crying and fighting
I'm tired of this same old thing
You say you care but it don't seem that way
I just want to rewind the days

To a time when you'd love to speak to me
To a time when you wouldn't ignore me
To a time where we were both happy
Footloose and fancy free

She will love you
But will she love you like I do?
I've been standing in the same spot
That you left me standing in
I've been patient
but even that is wearing thin
I need you like I need air to breathe.
I need you to be the way you were, please?
___________


All I know is I want the old you back.
The one that values us.


trouble

Labels: emo, song lyrics

have you ever come to the point when you don't know who you are anymore?
I feel like that sometimes.
I stare at the girl in the mirror and I don't recognize her.
who is this girl - this stranger? what is she doing living MY life?

I feel like I'm pounding on a door that will never break.
Screaming until my lungs are sore, but there is no one listening.
_

you are the only exception. -Paramore-
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sometimes i feel like i'm trapped in a horrible nightmare.
an endless looping cycle of the same damn thing all over again.

i can feel myself on the brink of insanity.
i am in a cage i cannot break out of.
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You're gonna fly with every dream you chase. You're gonna cry, but know that that's okay. Sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there, you're gonna see that sometimes bad is good. We just have to believe things will work out like they should.Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me, you're gonna be...

Labels: emo, sadness, song lyrics

Labels: alone, angst, confusion, emo, sadness

what happened to me and my ability to separate; compartmentalize?
i want to cut the cord, but i cannot
its because of that stupid promise i made, i am tied to it.
i need to do this, for myself.
but i'm being selfish,
and i'm not supposed to be that way.
i'm supposed to be a loyal, true, good friend who's ALWAYS got your back 24/7 no MATTER what.
what if that line blurs sometimes?
what if every day it gets a little harder.
and i can't even tell you everything.
you would never understand.
which is a pity.
as of right now, secrets can kill and
i'm drowning in the weight of TWO.

it's not fair.
but life never is.
oh,how i wish i had no emotions, no feelings.
if i had the ability to choose when i could turn them on and turn them off.
life would be so much easier for me
instead of these impetuous, foolish things that make me curl up at night
and wish I wasn't so FREAKING alone.
i'm so envious and bitter and hateful
it's not good for me.
I need to rise above this and stop thinking about myself.
my sorry, pitiful, pathetic self.
i want to shut you out, but a promise is a promise and i always try to always keep my promises,
God help me.
God help me.
God, are you there?
I know You are.
I know You're listening, watching.
Help me learn from my mistakes.
i have this bad habit of shutting everyone out
when i need people; friends, the most.
maybe that's why I feel like I'm alone, like nobody cares.
now the nights are growing cold
i'm grasping at straws now,
desperate for a hand to hold.
these fears are becoming real
i need to face them. and be strong.
they always said 'you need to face your monsters to make them go away'
but they never told me it would be so difficult.
~


lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.

Labels: emo, sadness, secrets, song lyrics

I AM SO SAD.
I CAN'T GO FOR THE SHOPPING BAZAAR THIS WEEKEND!!!
WHY??!!
because of PAROIMIA, the church play I'm in.
how depressing.
I love Paroimia.
but I love shopping too! =(

and dr. pizzicato is gonna be there!!!!!
i wanted to check out alexa !!!!
da@#%#$^#%#$
%#@$)!@#)@$)
:(

Labels: emo

i hate myself.
it surprises me.
how strong this is.
and i wish for someone to tell me it's gonna be okay.
but no one ever does, no one ever does.
i'm lying half the time
and saying i'm fine
nobody knows the truth.
not even you, not even you.

Labels: angst, depression, emo, hurt, sadness

have you ever felt so alone?
in the midst of a crowd.
sometimes i feel that way,
withdrawn.
like nobody knows me.
nobody cares.
yes i'm wallowing so
i'm going to stfu
and go find some other lousy thing to do to get my mind off things.
story of my life.
i miss the people that don't care about me
isn't that strange?
they won't give two fucks
and yet i care so much
and yes i should stop swearing
ugh.

Labels: angst, emo

it's late
and my eyes are sore.
and so is my throat
and
i wish
i wasn't alone tonight.
:(
i miss astronaut, my friends, diva.
i'm going on singapore trip with friends. WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shopping mou!?
=D
and I'm GOING TO BE SICK TOMORROW
i'm having all the symptoms
i hate runny noses.

Labels: emo

drugs
mother
Sun
sadness
curiosity
the reason why
just no, fuck no.
tumblr
how to recognize I'm a psycho
fuck you. I'm fine alone.

i wrap my world in you
all you can think is yourself
this is a time i have to leave
i'm in this by my self
-ignite

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