leaving2:20 AM
Monday, June 21, 2010
:)
okay this aint the best photo of tim and i but whatever. :D
i'm leaving.
i have mixed feelings about this.
i'm leaving my best friend. for quite a while
i'm going to miss him so much.
but at the same time, i'm so excited to be seeing my brother after so long.
i'mma give him a big bear hug!
and he's going to take photos of me
hehehe
fingers crossed i get on the main page of lookbook?
shit.
i don't want to leave.
i don't want things to change.
can i just freeze time.
no, what i want to do, is go back in time when it was just us,
us against the world.
sigh
you, you, you,
why you always gotta be like this?
i'm slowly making my own path, it's for my own good,
you never loved me when you knew you should.
i got a new top today. and leggings! I LOVE LEGGINGS. and stockings. hehe.
i miss you, best friend, so much.
Labels: confusion, sadness, song lyrics, Tim
trust is difficult.11:34 PM
Monday, January 4, 2010
i hate how this new year is starting. I should be with you. You should be with me. This is fucked up. I spent so much time with you in the holidays. You made me fall in love with you again. I hate it. I hate this feeling of losing control. And yet when you look at me in that way i forget that I hate it. You have so much power over me. You make me so happy. And at times you make me so angry I want to throw things at you. I want to be with you in spite of all the bad times. Gah. Fuck it. I'm destined to be alone. Now school is starting the whole cycle will begin again. I know it. I don't know how to fully trust in you again. I'm always afraid to lose you. Yet what do I have to lose? There isn't anything between us anyway. Sigh.
don't hurt me.
please. i'll try to trust you. if only you don't hurt me.
Labels: alone, angst, confusion, emo, sadness
say out loud5:58 AM
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I've always said,
I was okay.
But now I don't know
I don't know
~tuning into Shelly Fraley's 'I Don't Know'
it comes with the late night,
this darkness, this sadness
this fear.
i can tell,
it wants to stay.
Labels: confusion, sadness, Shelly Fraley
hate.8:52 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
there's just
so many
goddamned keys.
and I just
can't seem to find the
right one.
I hate .Labels: confusion, keys
