Visual Walker

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scared.3:07 AM

Sunday, May 9, 2010

sometimes i get these panic attacks at night.
my chest tightens in fear.
and for a few seconds i am just SO damn scared.
and i just cry and cry and cry.
and i don't know why.
i tell myself to breathe.
breathe.
count to ten.
everything's going to be alright.
no one will EVER hurt me this bad again.

Labels: alone, depression

trust is difficult.11:34 PM

Monday, January 4, 2010

i hate how this new year is starting. I should be with you. You should be with me. This is fucked up. I spent so much time with you in the holidays. You made me fall in love with you again. I hate it. I hate this feeling of losing control. And yet when you look at me in that way i forget that I hate it. You have so much power over me. You make me so happy. And at times you make me so angry I want to throw things at you. I want to be with you in spite of all the bad times. Gah. Fuck it. I'm destined to be alone. Now school is starting the whole cycle will begin again. I know it. I don't know how to fully trust in you again. I'm always afraid to lose you. Yet what do I have to lose? There isn't anything between us anyway. Sigh.

don't hurt me.

please. i'll try to trust you. if only you don't hurt me.

Labels: alone, angst, confusion, emo, sadness

break me down2:15 AM

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

i hate that you can see through me.

i hate that you can hurt me.

i hate that my trust means so little to you.

____________

i could use somebody.

someone like you.

_______

i swear sometimes, i'm so tired of running.

I run and i run and I run and i RUN

but i can never run faster than you

and I am so so tired.

i want to quit.

____

i'm yours if you can break down these walls tonight

there, photos of my short hair :D

Labels: alone, angst, poetry, song lyrics

what i wish for.2:20 PM

Monday, August 24, 2009

it's a pity ,
a sad, sad thing
a crying shame!
that things gotta turn out this way.
i'd be lying if i said i didn't miss you
but i do, every single day.
i wish for your voice on the phone
your arms to hold me so
i won't feel quite so alone
give me a little time
i'm not made of stone.

Labels: alone, poetry, song lyrics

5:54 PM

Sunday, August 23, 2009

I come home

And I find myself alone again

And I need your voice on the phone

To remind me of how brave I am

i would rather die than admit it.

seriously.

these walls aren't thick enough to keep out those ghosts.

Labels: alone, song lyrics

12:20 AM

that single moment
before you kissed her
there were stars in her eyes.
did you miss it?
were you too busy looking for yourself?
solitary, and beautiful.
it's time she wrote her own story now.
anyway, electricity is seriously overrated.
:)

Labels: alone, memories, poetry, song lyrics

:(11:01 PM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

the way you get me into you,

is amazing,

that look, your style,

your smile,

it drives me wild.

______

tuning into 'Copeland's -Chin Up-'

watching Heidi Montag's videos are burning my eyes.

and ears.

seriously

that girl CANNOT sing

and she's hot but that's about it

OMG

how ppl get famous nowadays -_-

SUNDAY was AWESOME. but crazy. and adventurous.

HAHA

I love kristinia debarge!!

dislike jordin sparks' new song Battlefield

i like Colbie Caillat's one though:D

I LOVE DEMI LOVATO I WANT TO BUY ALL HER ALBUMS

:D:D:D

i miss my bro

it gets lonely at home

Labels: alone, poetry, song lyrics

1:20 AM

Saturday, July 4, 2009

in that one beautiful moment.

she realizes she's alone.

Labels: alone, photo