let's start anew.2:05 AM
Sunday, August 8, 2010
hello.
i touch you, but your hands are frozen.
glued to your side.
i look around and suddenly i'm alone.
sadness washes over me like a tide.
i shiver.
so much distance, distance, between us.
this is not what i want.
is this what you want?
maybe you don't remember,
cos you always change your mind.
but i'm not yours.
not anymore.
not this time.
breathe in, breathe out.
there's someone who cares for you.
the storm is rolling in
and my patience's wearing thin
i reach for you but
your face is cold
i'm tired of this game;
it's getting old.
i don't want this.
i don't want things to be like this.
people change, you say.
but does that make everything okay?
i surge forward,
the letters in my hand.
i'm sorry i have to do this,
but i hope you understand.
little by little i'm letting go.
but i just want you to know.
i'll always always love you so.
this decision is hard to make
but this is the road i have to take.
let's cut a few of the threads that are holding us together
i need to do this to get through this weather
because i'm drowning in the state i'm in
i don't want to be the way i've been
you don't need to worry,
i'm not cutting you off completely.
but this is what i need to do.
i need to slowly loosen this grip i have on you.
that way you'll get what you want.
what you've always wanted.
the space you've always needed.
i know in my heart.
i no longer have a space in yours.
the way you used to care; the love that is no longer there.
an empty room where it was filled
with all the promises and dreams now killed.
so maybe this is the way things should be.
the way things ought to be.
you've made it very clear where things stand
so now things will go according to your plan
i'll take a step back
and watch as she takes my place
watch as our memories are slowly erased
replaced by fresh ones that won't fade away.
life is like that
it sweeps us off our feet
then it lets us down again
just to remind us where we are again,
truly flawed, selfish,
but gloriously human.
i will watch and stand by the sidelines.
but know this - i'll cheer for you until the day I die.
listen to these words and listen close,
there's always someone who loves you most.
