Visual Walker

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not quite right1:21 AM

Monday, December 12, 2011

so many things have happened.

i met him and honestly things just happened, without my expectations on the matter.

we've been together since.. november 8th. :O

and it's weird. when we're apart, sometimes i truly miss him, i do.

but maybe the sparks are smoldering, the butterflies have flown away.

HAHA.

or maybe i'm just a fickle-minded bitch.

anyway this ain't gonna be long term but i can't seem to let things go

I don't know how to chill.

god i need to learn how to fucking relaxxxx. :/

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sometimes i feel like i don't fit with you?

does that make sense?

curves scrape

hollows hurt

it just doesn't feel quite right, sometimes.

but with him the way we used to be was like

lightning -sparks

not all the time

but a deep and comfortable silence

the kind you can fall asleep in

the kind where when you're with that person

everything seems to fit

even when you're fighting

it's wrong of me to compare, so i won't.

it's wrong of me to talk like this, so i don't.

the problem with me is that i ask for too much. i shouldn't.

i want everything and i know you cannot give me that and i shouldn't ask you for that because it's not fair and it's not what we agreed on.

but you know humanity. given an inch, we want a mile.

and i. want. a motherfucking. mile.

we both have trust issues but for now just let me take care of you.

JUST LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU.