drugs7:39 AM
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
like heroin
under my skin
you are found in my heart
in my lungs
in my bloodstream
racing when you bite my lip
your hand on my hip
entwined like the tendrils of smoke
around your mouth when you kiss me
full.
you do not fit the mold.
to describe you
is to paint a storm.
rule-breaker, risk-taker,
i love you, i love you.
______
you are found in the places I thought were lost
caverns of my heart
the depth I never thought possible
waterfall bubbles of happiness
____
my sex drive is out of conrol lately man what the fuck.
i am watching porn while my parents are praying in the next room.
i can hear them hahaha omg i am so going to hell sigh.
God, o God, what has become of me?
mother7:37 AM
Mother!
Bible thumper
I do not wish to be like you
though I love God too.
(j
ust not enough)
The taste of sin
Entices like the fruit of Eden
Too strict, too strict
It makes me sick.
Mother!
I am a bad daughter
A sinner because
I wish I wasn't yours.
I am not a little girl anymore,
mother.
Why do you treat me like one?
I glorify in my rebellion
Smoke, dope, hope.
I do not wish to do this to you, Mother
(it breaks my heart everyday)
But I know you can never,
will never.
be able to handle the truth.
I am the
antithesis of you.
Sun1:45 AM
Friday, July 6, 2012
oh the controversy
:/
in the end times too, good people will fall.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/who-is-ho-yeow-sun--20120626.html
http://www.citynews.sg/2012/05/city-harvest-church-10-years-of-the-crossover-project/
https://www.facebook.com/notes/samuel-caleb-wee/death-of-a-halo-of-kong-hee-chc-and-christianity/10151054826826458
on another note
LOVE THESE EYELASHES :) and makeup
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.201602603243948.44829.137663552971187&type=1
sadness4:49 AM
Sunday, July 1, 2012
i feel as guilty as sin
as terrible as fuck
i love my boyfriend
but i love sex!
i love giving oral sex!
i am such a bad person
i am covered with shame
i love you, ifu
but you broke my heart
just a little bit
maybe that is what drove me to tonight
to doing something that is as familiar to me
cheating
i don't blame you for not trusting me
i'm not worthy of you
definitely not
guilt smothers me
like a blanket
and I am so filled with shame it eats me up
bruises me worse than what you did.
i love you
but i hate you at the same time.
curiosity1:24 AM
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
curiosity killed a cat,
meow! and that was that.
nine lives couldn't save it, that poor little thing!
my fault it died, oh well oh well.
the reason why12:31 AM
Monday, May 28, 2012
Her voice, it was like perfume in my head, enveloping me.
Full of that sweetness and light.
The kind of happiness one feels on a bright summer day.
'Lovestruck', they whispered.
They said I had a condition
"You'll see soon enough, love doesn't exist." They declared
(As if they were so wise with their years long behind them)
Perhaps I should have believed them. I should have.
Maybe then I wouldn't have gotten myself into this mess.
I wish I could have proved them wrong.
But you, you were just like the rest of them,
Deceptive, candy-coated, fleeting.
Funny how someone can make you feel like you're on the top of the world
And at the next minute, break you like you're just nothing,
Fragile, a piece of glass.Your promises; empty and worthless like trash.
They tell me I'm heartless now.
I know I am, I know I am.
But you, you made me this way.
There's always a story, there's always a beginning.
Well, my beginning was you.
you try so hard to shut the feelings out but the truth is they're always there.
they're always there.
just no, fuck no.4:02 AM
Saturday, May 26, 2012
there are bad ideas....
THEN there are bad ideas. :| :/ D:
just. no. no. no.
no.
then you ask yourself,
"
how can you do this?" and the answer is, you
can't. you
can't.
sometimes people just need time and when that time is not given to them, well, it's just one unhealthy cycle
all over again.
and i
refuse to be a part of this.
