what hurts the most.1:55 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
this hurts.
this hurts so goddamnmotherfucking much
and i want you to know how it feels
to feel like you're bleeding on the inside,
you never even had the guts to say you're sorry.
you're tired?
well, I'm tired too.
a different kind of tired.
tired of all this.
i want to say more to you.
on text.
but really, i don't know what to say.
guilting you out doesn't work.
you just
don't have a conscience when it comes to me.
i'm
just sarah after all.
just
nobody at all to you.
or at least it seems like it alot of the time.
perhaps that is what hurts the most.
perhaps if i start acting like ___________
you might like it more?
perhaps if i treated you a little meaner, you might like it more?
ha. fat chance.
the saddest part is you'll never ever realise how much i care for you.
you'll never know or understand how i feel until you've been in my shoes.
don't call me a hypocrite when you're one too.
open your eyes, honey.
don't point out the speck in my eye when the piece of wood is freaking in your face!
i wish, oh how i wish you would know what this feels like.
crying at night feels so worthless
i'm never going to be good enough for you, aren't i?
and you always seem to let me down.
disappoint me.
i always hope for better in you.
you're sorry, oh, you'll change.
and every single time, i believe you.
i don't know who's the bigger fool.
you or I.
Labels: angst, disillusioned, hurt, sadness
