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something I wrote:
I`m surprised to hear you say you remember.

Your smile makes my heart sing.

things aren't the way they were before; you wouldn't even recognize me anymore,

I memorized all the words for you

But if you only knew how much that's not like me

I wait up late every night just to hear your voice

But you don't know that's nothing like me

Love is like a fallen star,

a beautiful disaster.

can I have this dance?



whisper to me your secrets,
you know I'll keep them well.


___



watched HSM 3 with shams and alia.
it's not as bad as everyone says.
6 out of 10 i say. :D
i quite liked some of the outfits in the show. I loved the music also. Sooo naiseeee :)

Labels: HSM 3, poetry, secrets, song lyrics

oh;;

you know i'm good for you, i swear it's true

i can but hope, you think so too. (:




today went costume hunting for the school play after school! funnnn [got some chinese zombie pics of julian, haha funny story there, but more next time ] but i was too fat to zip

up some stuff UGH. must lose weightt T_T ! am going again next week on another search for
my costume (: after costume hunting, a bunch of us went to Devi's Corner and bonded. haha

so fun! I felt so close to everyone, it's a good feeling, yo. :D i think the play is really uniting everyone . =) came back for dinner, had roast

beef, boiled potatoes, salad, sausages and drummets for dinner. omg soo naiseee and yummay. :P haha fatttss gah!
on the plus side, i lost weight, 1 kg to be exact.
and 5 more to go????
anyone wanna exercise with meeeee ?
:D:D:D:



i love stacie orrico's voice ! i would love to sing a song by her someday (:
her transitioning is soo smooth and controlled. <3>hope. :D
another band practice tomorrow ! (:
hope sunday goes well. haha i'm gonna record a video for my brother to see. =) i miss him, haven't spoken to him in awhileee ): i'm kinda nervous about sunday, hope i don't mess up and make a total fool of myself. hope my voice holds up!



aww ain't this cat just so uber cute?? ©
baby love, mother theresa. roflmao *dies
wtfbbq the awesome ;)

Labels: song lyrics

Labels: depression, hurt, sadness

what the fuck.
I AM SUPER DUPER PISSED .

they treat me like I'm a little KID.

okay, so I'm 'friendly'

apparently overly SO.

just because i'm 'friendly' doesnt mean i'm not FREAKIN CAREFUL.

doesnt mean i dont use my BRAINS when it comes to people.

I KNOW THAT SOME PEOPLE DONT ALWAYS HAVE THE BEST OF INTENTIONS. -_-'

PFFFFFFT.

and the reason why i dont TELL you about some things is because you just don't UNDERSTAND.

and you don't even TRY. that's why i dont even bother to argue. just a waste of breath only. it's only going to end the same way. you think i'm bad, evil, going astray, whatever.

just because you don't KNOW my friends doesn't mean they're bad, alright?

geez, and you wonder why I don't trust you guys. DUH, because its vice versa. and when I do try opening myself up it ALWAYS GOES WRONG. -_- wth. in the end just give up la.

you guys patronize me, put me in the middle of your fights, place unnecessary pressure on me (WHEN ITS SUPPOSED TO BE MY OWN FREAKING DECISION), and

YOU especially

TELLING ME TO BE HONEST AND OPEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT EVEN HONEST AND OPEN YOURSELF?

hahaha. you hypocrite, you.

you guys don't even know the REASON why i act the way I do.

ugh.

yes i have anger management issues.

and yes I've tried talking to God. apparently not hard enough.

I'm still bitter, she's still as blur as ever about things, and I'm the one left to deal with it all.

thanks a whole lot, you guys.

JUST WHAT I NEEDED.

i talked to Pastor Rose about it. she was really helpful and stuff but really I feel like I'm going through this all alone.

nobody understands.

and now that ____ is gone i feel worse and worse.

angst angst angst.

it helped when you were around, but you're not anymore, so i guess it's back to crying on the floor.

i miss my brother.



i need to escape. but i don't know how, or where to.

i want to cry or smash things but i can't do either.

JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

Labels: angst

okay so my blog is up and running now

(:

yays.

i love my layout omg! its so prettay ! <3

all thanks to shammie who taught me how to use blogger.
she's the awesome, yo. check her blog out, it's so way freaking cooler than mine.

i actually used to use blogger so felt quite dumb :D

nyehehe. i'm quite dumb nowadays.

duno where all my brain cells are going. o.O need to drink more milk?!

oh wait that's for the bones D:

whoops there goes another blonde moment.

haha

anyway until i think of more stuff to post, it's byeee for nao !




hallo
Testing one two three ! :D

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i wrap my world in you
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this is a time i have to leave
i'm in this by my self
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